I have so much waiting in the wings… updates on Finn, and all sorts of nuggets of wisdom that I have mined over the past weekend at a retreat in California with my husband and dear friends… I feel constipated with blog posts and limited in my time to write and publish! I need some … More Dear Friend
A year ago August, our family was serving on assignment at Malibu, a Young Life Camp in Canada, and the blog was just taking shape. After full days of adventuring around camp, digging up crabs, laughing and crying and melting down {my boys, not me of course} and doing life in the most lovely community … More Labor and Delivery
Talking with a dear friend today, I was given the sweetest perspective on the life I am housing. She is wise and wonderful and asked me how I was processing this new one in light of what we have walked through these past months… She proceeded to share of her own story, of how she … More Life for Life
They say that grief comes in waves. I have written that before here, the day we found no heartbeat. And weeks have passed and the waves have lessened in altitude and frequency. There has in fact been a sweet calm for some time now. Until tonight. Marsh and I were just finishing a movie and … More Waves
The past two weeks have been a whirlwind of heart ache and heart full and heart healing and heart dancing and heart thankful… but a new one has entered the lineup: heart betrayed. I wrote deep into the night on a Monday almost two weeks ago, and released my throbbing heart to a sleeping world, unable to … More Betrayed
Many have asked if and how I told my boys about our loss… Honestly, I don’t know how to sidestep reality, and didn’t really prepare all that much about how or when I would tell them… As I walked in the door from our appointment, Tucker {7} looked up at me with his big blue eyes … More Speaking of Heaven
It’s the only word I have to describe today. Flooded. After processing last night through my fingers and posting this in the wee hours of the morning, I could never have anticipated what would come of it today… I admit, when you have 3 little men 7,4 and 2, there is not really time to be … More Flooded
Grief is an odd thing. They say it comes in waves. So true. Today I had an ultrasound, the first ultrasound for this little #4. And yet, it was very unlike my other three. The big black chasm on the screen that has always before encased a miniature beating heart, head oversized and limbs just … More No Heartbeat.
THE TETHERING PLACE 