My presents are wrapped. It is officially Christmas eve. All of my boys big and small are snoozing soundly and this girl is up far too late. It is crazy to think I was going into surgery a week ago today. I cried that night for no particular reason but that waiting is exhausting and … More The Waiting is Over.
Marshall and I have a most amazingly talented, diverse, creative, life-loving, life-giving group of friends that we have the privilege of gathering with once a year for soul-purpose. Yes, purposeful time to splay open ourselves, our marriages, our hopes realized and hopes crushed over the year past, and lay out our dreams for the coming season. And … More Golden Sessions
The past two weeks have been a whirlwind of heart ache and heart full and heart healing and heart dancing and heart thankful… but a new one has entered the lineup: heart betrayed. I wrote deep into the night on a Monday almost two weeks ago, and released my throbbing heart to a sleeping world, unable to … More Betrayed
I have read that Eskimos have numerous different words in their native tongue to represent snow in all of its forms. I find that brilliant. I confess I am a word nerd. I have often joked that I should be a neologist {maker of words} because reading the dictionary might be one of my favorite … More Not enough words.
Many have asked if and how I told my boys about our loss… Honestly, I don’t know how to sidestep reality, and didn’t really prepare all that much about how or when I would tell them… As I walked in the door from our appointment, Tucker {7} looked up at me with his big blue eyes … More Speaking of Heaven
It’s the only word I have to describe today. Flooded. After processing last night through my fingers and posting this in the wee hours of the morning, I could never have anticipated what would come of it today… I admit, when you have 3 little men 7,4 and 2, there is not really time to be … More Flooded
Grief is an odd thing. They say it comes in waves. So true. Today I had an ultrasound, the first ultrasound for this little #4. And yet, it was very unlike my other three. The big black chasm on the screen that has always before encased a miniature beating heart, head oversized and limbs just … More No Heartbeat.
So, while I am at it, I thought it would be fun to share another of Tucker’s bedtime revelations. 🙂 The other night, I was snuggling in the bottom bunk with my middle, Bennett, who had promptly fallen asleep. Up on the top bunk, Tucker had been quiet for a bit, when he suddenly erupted … More Bedtime Chats… Part Deux.
THE TETHERING PLACE 